Everything happened too fast , i cant really remember.

All i know is Bf yelled at me very loudly , he got fed up , i got fed up and i just went off like that.

After the yelling of sound passing through my head , all i know is , i have to GET OUT OF HERE!

I couldn't cry , i couldn't shout , i couldn't do anything. I just simply walk away , pretending that theres nothing going on.

I dont really know what to do than , went off to my mum place.

Sitting alone at the Bus-Stop , thinking 'am i going to ba alone again?' 'Where is Bf , what is he doing now?'

Get on the bus , the bus just came to the next stop , and there Bf is.

He din saw at first , but when he borded the bus , he went off the bus again.

I just remain seated and pretend that i din even noticed him. I was crying all the way , with my face covered.

That was the worst day ever in my life. All i do ytd was to pretend , pretend and pretend.

I din want my mum know whats happening and force myself with a smile.

Look so fake , with my red eyes. I complained that my contact hurts.

Im sitting inside my mum office , doing nothing.

Bf should be having fun with Ah shun ba.

Hope he will take care of himself and not let his parents worried again.

'Smile 1 day , cry also 1 day , why not smile?'(((:

Maybe im not big enough for you.

Maybe im not matured enough for you.

Maybe we're not suitable.

Or even , maybe we shouldn't be together in the first place.

Or even , im not up to your expectation.

Whatever that is , i accept it.

Pretending that im suitable fopr you ,

Pretending that im matured enough for you,

pretending that im the one for you. Everything will soon come an end

The decision is for you.

I will tell myself , i have given every single love from me to you

And im sastisfied with everything that you have given me

The love , the care , the encouragement.

Even if im forced to leave you , i will leave you with a smile

I will hold back my tears , pretend that it's ok

This way , you will leave without knowing that you actually hurt someone that deep.

Cos you alr forgotten the FOREVER you once said to me!