STRESS OUT!

Due to boardness , here's my second post.(:

Damn board , so excited about tmr. Wish and hope nothing goes wrong.

Seriously , im worried that im not use to it. cos it's NOT YOU whos beside me , but HIM!

But just have to accept it. Cos his now MY! Haha

Do i sound happy? I think so. l0l

sorry eh , this is just a fucking lame post.(:

If i cant hold on , i'll let go

But i'll never give up!

I don't try to remember us but when I do,

it brings a smile to my lips and a tear to my eye.

DOG BARK

Stop annoying me. BITCHES!
Just leave me alone.
Dislike me, FUCK OFF! I dont think i like you too!
Now than i know your a 2 headed BITCH!
Go home and think about it. What have you done to me.
I din say a word , but you , stop treating me like im BLIND. I wont forgive you for what you have done!
And as i said , i wont find trouble with you , but just ASS-OFF my life!

Too hard to move on

Maybe , it's really time to give up

Today is just the second day , but i alr felt empty. I don't know what to do when im back home , luckily , Miao and Nicko came to my house and bring me all the laughter that i needed, But after they're gone , im empty again.):

It's just 2 more days to our 8 months, Times flies , and did not wait for us. It went so fast that it actually make me unbearable. Im so stress , so depress , so sick and tired of everything. Now that you've left , i cant share any secrets with anyone. Not even myslef.

Maybe your the right one for me , but i din really cherish you, And now i've lost you , everything fall apart. How i wish time could just turn back. How i wish i din leave you. Everytime i picked up your call , i have to remind myself , your not mine anymore , we are just friend.I don know where you are , i don know what you're doing , and i don even know if you have that little more feeling for me.):

Maybe i hurt you too deep down , and it acually cause numbness. I don wish to be at home , i don wish to do anything , i don wish to even sleep on my own bed , i don wish to go places where theres memories of you and me. But i have to face the truth , that you're actually gone.

Every corner of my house , reminds me of you. Now that im alone at home , i wish to hear you calling me from the kitchen, Whenever i try to lye on my bed , i think of you , sleeping beside me , when ever im on the phone with friends, i really hope that was you , whenever i woke up , i hope to see you sitting beside my bed , saying i love you.

But none of it will come true again. Why din i wish that that will last longer.How i wish your by my side , i really hope to wishper those 3 words into your ears. I MISS YOU!

The Last GoodBye

Tts the first sweetest pic we took


Everything ends today at 8.25pm today , 17 feb09'. I swear i will hate this date forever!
Time check , 9.18pm. it's not even an hour , and im missing you!):
I really cant possibly treat you this way. I cant take it as nothing have happen before. And i don have the courage to actually face you!
I need you , yes , i know , everyone knows , but im tired.
Not because of him , but us.
I have been trying so hard to be your good gf , and i think , i sometimes , i should stop , and get some rest
Im still in love with you , but i cant be with you.
And seriously , when you said that you hate me , my heart actually sank!):
Maybe , this is the only way to settle everything , not leaving any tracls behind.
Even though people use to say , 'we cant be lover , but we can be the best friend ever!'
In our case , i think it's impossible. Totally out of question.
I think. But i really wished to be your friend. Not friend , but Gf.):
No point saying this anymore, Things wont change.
Maybe this ain the right choice , but i've choosen to walk onto this path.
Hope i wont regret.
But saying till here , im REGRETTING!
Sorry my dearest boy. Im not good enough for you.
I sincerly wish that you find some1 far way better than me.
I know you wish to forget me badly. Hope your wish come true soon.
Love you , Bye my boy.):


Tts the last pic we took together.

I've been reading through our past msg and msn conversation.

I really miss those day

Held my hand , kiss me on my forehead , hug me tight when im sad.

But i know , everything will never be the same):

I LOVE YOU , just 3 more days , it'll be 8 month.

ok , ytd was V.day , so spent my whole day with Baby!(:
Baby came to fetch me , he was expecting me to be ready when he come , but i wasn't. lol(:

So Baby waited for like about , 5 mins or even more , and we're ready to go! Have a puff at bus-stop with Baby.(:
Baby bought me SOMETHING!
Aww~ Baby your're sweet. Sorry if i din buy anything for you. But Monday everything you want to eat or buy , I PAY!(:
Ytd went lots of plce , and my leg was like so numb.
Actually wanted to catch a movie , but every show was like selling fast or even SOLD OUT!
Damn , i've been waiting for so long to watch a MOVIE!
Ok , laugh all you want.(:
Baby was sooooo sweet ytd. Went Ps walk walk around , YanShan was there , he even called our name , but we din hear. Shows that Ps so PACKED!
At night , went to usual place , called ah mao to come , but he say he shy.lol

So slack around , have some more puff , watch concert , have somethngs to eat , and it's alr like 11 plus , i guess.
My phone batt went FLAT again ytd! Shit , i need a NEWPHONE soon!
Baby , im waiting for you(:
Anyways , last night was so memorable(:
Thx Baby , I LOVE YOU!
Ytd i was a heavy somker , i know. I'll cut down , promise!

Here Comes the Up and Down EMOTION!

You promised we have lunch together today , and it's actually my treat.):
Was wanting you to fetch me , but you din turn up. Instead your with your mum. What's your philosophy for life? Break Promises? Nah , i don't think so. As i always use to say , 'Don't promise so fast that you actually din think about it.'(: The more you want to accept her unwillingly , the more she will feel unloved . Understand , my dear?

You din meet me , than why are you so sure that i will give you MY black face?
Is it , you rather just forget it , than face it? Huh?
Im not showing you my attitude , im just trying to talk nicely yo.
Just as i mention , 'Don't cherish me , i will be gone in just a min.' You may find it nothing , but when you really lose it , you will regret for your life.
This promise that you broke is minor , but the other promise that you make , if you break it , it's MAJOR!
Ok , enough of all this.
Schools , SUCK TO THE CORE!
Anyways , today our class got show man , CANNING!
It looks painful , really. Mr Voon was panting a lil after the canning.lolol:D
I wanted to laugh so badly , but saw Sathival in so much pain , i nearly cried. Haas
But i held back my tears , cos Mr Gomes started to nag at us for like 5 mins or so.
Mr Gomes said a classical sentence , ' Nobody can change the past , but we can alter our FUTURE.' Cool huh~
Mr Thum , your so wicked! ERK!-.-'
Cant open my file huh , im gonna send the file to you like 3009876 times , till you open it up , and PRINT it for ME! I SWEAR!

Ok , baby i miss you , just when will we be normal back? JUST WHEN?
Im nicely talking to you huh , don say i show attitude.(: Love You!

I GIVE UP! DO WHATEVER YOU WANT!

CRAVINGS

Went over to Baby's house to slack. (:

So nice to have him beside me. At night , Baby's dad called , saying he won 4d. We were like , ' SO FAST?'
But sad to say , he got it wrong! Not wrong , is he din even bought the number. lolol
That was the most ridiculous thing i've ever heard! He got everyone so excited , but in the end , ZERO! NOTHING!

But nehmind , we will win someday , somehow.(;
Believe and your wish and dream will come true.
Anyways , have dinner at Lor.8 with Baby. Nice , i've got the chicken cutlet again(:
Im going there , again, next time!(;

Im craving for SUSHI!
Baby! I want THAT PHONE!!!!
And not forgetting to say , you're the cutest Baby ever! EVER!

As can see , i went out AGAIN!(:

Baby , came to my house to slack from 1 plus to 3. After a few hours of waiting , we went down to Ps to have our lunch , cos Shun and Shan haven reach. lolol
They're always , ALWAYS , late! But i din really mind , cos i know that they're extremely tired. So , went to have MAC , it's like thousand years since i have their burger.
Shun and Shan finally arrive , about 15 mins late.
Was expecting Shan's Gf , but she wasn't with them. Asked , and Shan says she'll reach abit later on.

Walk around Ps and Shan's Gf arrive.
Oh god , should i comment on her Gf , or should i not. Ok , i'll simply describe.
Don't blame me , shan.
Ok , here it goes: She's taller than Shan a lil bit , She's not really good looking , but she's caring towards Shan. I think tts all i can say. I don't really wanna go on. Haas:D

So , have our lunch kum dinner at Just Asia. Not bad~
After that , went over to our usual place , Esplanade. Their having HuaYi Festival. Their perform were awesome.(: Was so engross in the show that i only took 1 pic and it's really blur.
And i actually found out that Bf was in that drum CCA When his in sec. So does Shan and Shun , the most unbeliveable thing is that Shan was the leader of the team. His like so little , i mean LITTLE! Ok , simply saying , he look like sec 2 when his actually sec 4. lolol

Cilled at StarBucks till 10 plus i think and we slowly stroll back to the MRT station and off i went home. Baby sent me home last night and meet Shan and Shun afterthat.(: baby , I love you(:
Meeting baby later on , gtg(:
Chios~

Went out with Baby and his mum.(: Have our dinner at Qi , nice~

After that went shop shop a round , got myself a top , im satisfied(: Thx eh , Baby.
Went over to Ah Pui's shop and got a cigg from him. lol

Baby cannot tahan , went to buy a pack of cigg and went to old place to slack.
Actually wanted to go 239 , i guess. I dont like it there. Old place is much more better(:
Serious!
Baby today very cute(: Anyways , i find myself loving him more and more each day.(:

Baby if you see this , you must , MUST AR , go 'AWWW'. lolol
I think tts all , gotta ciong my D n T now.
Tatas((((: